Yesterday morning I read a news story that made me sick with rage.  The story was about a man who had raped a woman. She had fallen asleep at his house in the early hours of the morning and had been so drunk and out of it that he had decided to rape her.  She woke up to find him on top of her, stealing from her something that he had no right to take.

This is a horror story.  I would imagine that he has stolen so much from her; her ability to trust, her ability to sleep deeply, her enjoyment of sex, positive feelings about her body.  How dare he touch her without her permission?  How dare he use her in this way?  What an evil man, a horrible sexual predator. 

The jury found Lee Setford guilty.  The verdict was unanimous.  He was sentenced to 5 years in prison and will have to register as a sex offender.  It would almost seem that the UK justice system has got this one right, well as right as such a paltry sentence can be. Sadly the judge, Michael Mettyear managed to undo this completely with his comments.

He began by praising Setford's good character; "It is sad to see a man  of generally good character in the dock for such a serious offense."

Yep, you read that right. A convicted rapist, who took advantage of a sleeping, extremely drunk woman, who wasn't even awake to say no, has generally good character.  He doesn't sound like a very nice guy to me. 

It gets worse, basically, Mettyear cannot hide his opinion that responsibility for rape lies with the victim and not the perpetrator; "It was almost out of the blue that two girls turned up late at night, very very drunk, at your home.  The victim was the worse for drink out of the two of them.  She was completely out of it.  I accept that evidence.  She was a pretty girl who you fancied.  You simply could not resist.  You had sex with her." 

She was completely out of it...... the judge accepts that the victim was so drunk that she was an easy target as evidence for the rapist's good character. 

She was a pretty girl who you fancied...... oh well, that's alright then, if you fancy someone, you're entitled to rape them because you will enjoy it.  What a neanderthal.

You had sex with her..... Actually, he raped her.  He attacked her and raped her.  There is a difference.  

Mettyear also said that he doesn't consider Setford a 'classic rapist,' Setford doesn't hide in bushes and jump out on women walking past.  He doesn't bundle them into his car and rape them at knifepoint.  No he just waits until they are paralytic, unconscious and willingly in his house before he attacks them.  I am not sure how this can be considered a good thing.  Rape is rape.  And blaming the victim is not helpful in any way. Rapists cause rapes. End of. 

If Mettyear was at a party and became so drunk that he fell asleep with his wallet on show and an opportunistic thief stole it from his pocket, would that mean it wasn't really theft? I am not suggesting that rape and theft are the same thing, but I am guessing that his opinion would differ in these circumstances.  

Setford is a predator with no respect for women.  He does not have good character.  He is a rapist and incidentally he has a previous conviction for battery.  

Mettyear should not be allowed his position of privilege. At the very least he needs some training, but I'd like to see men like him as far away from cases like this as possible.  I hope that Setford's victim knows that it was not her fault.  It was his fault.  There is no excuse. 

You can read the story that I read here:   http://www.buzzfeed.com/alisonvingiano/not-a-classic-rapist

Star Struck

After leaving my abusive relationship I found myself in a world of confusion, insomnia, hurt and disappointment.  I wanted to know why.  Why had I been treated the way I had?  Why hadn’t I seen it coming? What had I done to cause it?  Did I have a particular personality trait?  Had I chosen an abuser on some subconscious, subliminal level?  In my search for answers, I read and read and read.  I devoured books on controlling people (that is people who are controlling, not how to control people), on domestic abuse, on manipulative people and on being manipulated.  I read about personality disorders, sexism, feminism, the freedom programme and I read Katie Piper’s inspiring story, Beautiful, and I counted my blessings.  The more I read, the more obvious it became.  Violence against women in the form of domestic abuse is the biggest problem in our society.  I truly believe that.  And the reason it is so prevalent is obvious too.  We live in a society that treats women as objects.  Objects are things, they are inanimate, and they do not have feelings.  They do not have free will. If an object does not do what you expect or want it to, you either take it to bits and sort out the problem or throw it away. Simple. 

Maybe you don’t believe that women are treated this way.  I must admit, I hadn’t really noticed it before, but once my eyes were opened I realised that it is everywhere, and that I have a very big fight on my hands if I want to protect my daughters from the messages that they are bombarded with about their role in society, their bodies, their potential and their self-worth.  

If you walk into any newsagents, or supermarket, you are bombarded with images of scantily clad women in seductive poses.  This is damaging because it gives the message that women are not people, they are just bodies, or sex objects.  The largest image of a woman in the biggest selling ‘family’ newspaper is the image of a woman with her breasts on show, it is there purely for male sexual gratification.  Semi naked women are frequently shown posing with fully clothed men.  This is damaging because it portrays men as powerful, and women as vulnerable. I saw the video for Robin Thicke’s song Blurred Lines, semi naked women, pulling infantile faces (pouting, wide eyed) fully clothed men, all to a backdrop of revolting misogynistic lyrics. This all equals damaging, it’s the same message; women are playthings, men are powerful.  It’s not hard to see why this constant, inescapable conditioning leads to a very damaging belief system.

The reason I wrote this, is because today I began to pack up my belongings ready to move house.  I had plenty of boxes but no newspaper to wrap anything in.  I popped to the shop and bought five copies of the cheapest paper.  I shouldn’t have done it, because I then spent the whole time pissed off and furious.  I found myself wrapping up my belongings in sheets of paper with pictures of semi naked women, a problem page with a photo story featuring a woman in a see through top, and a story about Pippa Middleton’s knickers. FFS!  Yes, finally, those rumours that Pippa Middleton attended the royal wedding with no pants on have been silenced! At last! I mean who gives a fuck? This is news?  Of course, this story had to have picture of a woman in just her underwear and one of Pippa Middleton’s arse too, just to illustrate. Interestingly, next to the ‘story’ about Pippa’s pants, (which takes up over half a page) there are a few lines about Oscar Pistorius and whether he will face a first degree murder charge for shooting dead his girlfriend. Ironic?

So today I was reminded of all the things that I think are wrong with the media; the objectification of women and girls, turning them into things rather than people, focusing on body parts as if they don’t form part of a whole person.  Today I was reminded of the issues that I believe are causing and perpetuating the abuse of women in our society.  Because there are some men who have ingrained beliefs that women are objects, there for them to enjoy, control and ‘have’ and these men are the ones, who when ‘their’ woman, or any woman shows a sign of being a human being, and not a possession, believe that they have the right to do whatever necessary to bring her under his control, whether that be emotional, verbal, physical or sexual abuse.  He believes it is his right.  Today I was very disappointed at the amount of female flesh that I saw in my five copies of the Daily Star.  I suppose I should have known better really.

An unbelievable example of victim blaming

I have just listened to the news headlines and I am still reeling with disgust at what I have just heard.   41 year old paedophile, Neil Wilson, has been given a suspended sentence for sexual activity with a 13 year old child because, and I quote the judge here, she ‘led him on’. I cannot express my disgust at this enough.

I have a daughter who is thirteen very soon.  She is very much a child, just like every other thirteen year old. The judge said the child had been ‘egging on’ her abuser and the prosecutor, Robert Colover described her as ‘sexually experienced’.  Isn’t a sexually experienced child an already abused child?  Doesn’t that make her vulnerable rather than predatory? I really am at a loss as to how this idiot of a judge has ever been allowed the privilege of doing the job he is doing.  Does he not even understand very basics of child sex abuse?  Has he never heard of grooming? What a stupid ignorant man.  How can a person who is in a position of power hold such dangerous beliefs?  Victims of abuse are not the perpetrators! Abused, vulnerable, thirteen year old girls who have been groomed by paedophiles are not sexual predators. 

You can read the story here: http://news.sky.com/story/1125379/outcry-as-girl-called-sex-predator-by-judge

That judge, at the very least, needs to learn about child protection, but in an ideal world would never again be allowed to deal out ‘justice’ and Neil Wilson, the 41 year predatory paedophile who preyed on a vulnerable child, well he deserves as severe a punishment as possible. I hope he gets it.  

Why doesn't she just leave him?

I was going to write a blog post about Robin Thicke’s song ‘Blurred Lines’ and its accompanying video because I had the misfortune of seeing it yesterday and I wanted to punch the T.V. It is beyond nasty! However that post will have to wait, because over the last couple of days I have had a few messages from people who have read The Chameleon and I really wanted to say something about that.

Since releasing the book, so many women have told me that they too have experienced this type of relationship. Some have experienced abuse so subtle that the victim never really knows it is there. Or their relationship may have been labelled as ‘volatile’ when really it is abusive. These women have all wondered what they are doing to cause the problems.

I have read messages from people who have been battered, broken and at rock bottom, and have managed to escape and rebuild their lives. I have had a message from a lady who has given the story to her parents to read in the hope of shedding some light on an experience that she had.

I have had people write to me and tell me their story and then tell me that no one else knows what they have been through, and now I am wondering, just how big is this problem? Official figures suggest 1 in 4 women will be abused by a partner in her lifetime. That is pretty shocking don’t you think? But just in conversation with my immediate friends and family, I think that 1 in 4 is a conservative estimate. Personally, I would estimate that it is more like 1 in every 2 women, but that is just a guess.

One of the most frequently asked questions about abusive relationships is ‘why doesn’t she just leave?’ I understand, it is very frustrating to the outsider, who can clearly see that the abusive relationship is never going to yield happiness, but what is often misunderstood is the cycle that the relationship constantly follows. It doesn’t seem bad all the time, in fact some of the time it can seem very good, and this is one of the ways that the abuser keeps their hold over their victim. Don’t forget, they have built them up in the beginning of the relationship, placed them on a very high pedestal, only to knock them down, dismantle them piece by piece, break their heart and hurt their soul. Then just when things can’t get any worse, they will offer much needed love, tenderness and compassion. They will speak soothing words and make very convincing promises, and when you are hurting you are vulnerable, and when you are abused your confidence and self-esteem leave town. It’s easy for the abuser to manipulate you. An abuser will also have probably been working behind the scenes to isolate the victim by sabotaging friendships and family relationships. The victim may have no one left that she can trust.

Of course the other reason that women stay is the fear. It is very dangerous to leave an abuser. Two women a week are murdered in the UK by their partner or ex-partner. Most of those women were trying to leave. Terrifying isn’t it? So if you have experienced domestic abuse, I hope you know that it isn’t your fault, and if you know someone who is experiencing it right now, please don’t assume that it is easy to ‘just leave’ it’s not.

Unbelievable!

This carries on beautifully from my previous blog post. I mean really? 

Choose Wisely

It’s nice to have a sit down and a read.  A cuppa and a book for half an hour, or maybe a magazine to enjoy.  You have to choose carefully though, because some reading material might leave you with a bad taste in your mouth.

I first noticed it as a teenager, I would buy a magazine, read it, look at the pictures of the amazing models with their endless legs, smooth skin and tiny frames, and then feel bad.   I was a bit spotty, shortish, my hair was frizzy, my legs didn’t go on and on and my boobs still hadn’t grown in (some things never change).  I would read those magazines and feel ugly, but still I bought them. 

   

I did lots of quizzes too.  There was usually one in every magazine. One that sticks out in my mind is; Are you an apple or a pear? This was followed by a helpful section on how to get dressed if you were  shaped like an apple or a pear.  Essential reading huh?   All those years I’d been doing it wrong!

The thing is, we are all susceptible to the influence of these magazines.  Even though I now know that most of those images are airbrushed, they still make me dislike my own body and feel inferior.  And you see I don’t want to dislike my body.  It’s perfectly fine, I have been living in it for 34 years and it has done the job.  It has its quirks, it’s not perfect, but I try and look after it and I am thankful for my health.  

So, back to the magazines, I don’t buy them, I avoid reading them.  Why would I want to pay someone to make me feel like shit?  And over the years I have noticed them become nastier and more obvious in their attacks on women.  Does the Heat Magazine Circle of Shame still exist?  Can you imagine being that person, the one who is paid to find a photograph of someone and point out their perceived faults, their sweat patches, their spots or wrinkles.  How nasty.  What must that do to you as a human being, to be that cruel to others in the name of entertainment?  And of course, how would it feel to be the object of such shame.  I know when I have sweaty armpits, I hope no one notices, so I can only imagine how I would feel to have it broadcast to the nation.   I have also noticed that the magazines that are stocked at the checkout in the supermarket often have  a picture of some celeb or other who is having a ‘crisis’,  the image has been carefully chosen to be as unflattering as possible, a makeup -less unsmiling shot, to emphasise the emotional turmoil that whoever that week’s victim is experiencing.

So my point is this.  When you buy a magazine, ask yourself how you feel after reading it.  If the answer is that you feel good, (or at least no worse) then great, keep reading, but if, like me, you find seeds of doubt nagging away at you, then ditch them.  Read something else, after all, there are plenty of good books out there.

An Education

In the months after starting all over again, while I was putting one foot in front of the other, I read lots and lots of books.  I have two daughters and the thought of them growing up in this world terrifies me.  There are two books that are essential reading for my girls before they reach adulthood and make their way into the world. The first book is by a woman called Patricia Craven.  Pat worked as a probation officer and listened to the stories of hundreds of men who had abused their partners.  She came to recognise and understand their behaviours and beliefs and she developed The Freedom Programme and wrote the book Living with the Dominator.  It was Pat’s work that made me see that I was in an abusive relationship.  In fact it appeared that she personally knew my abuser, such was the accuracy of her description of The Dominator. I read this book in one morning, and the clarity that it afforded me, about not only the abusive relationship, but the world that we live in and society’s role in perpetuating abuse was astounding. I can honestly say that I have never learned so much from just one book.

The second book that I want my girls to read is called How to be a Woman by Caitlin Moran.  I started to read my sister’s copy and couldn't put it down, I hadn't realised that I was a feminist until I read this book and identified strongly with it.  It opened my eyes once again to the inequalities of today’s world.  I had grown accustomed to the sexism, the misogyny, the objectification of women and I think that I almost couldn't see the wood for the trees, so to speak.  Again it was a real eye opener and it made me laugh- a lot!  I awoke from my feminism apathy, ready to do whatever it takes to teach my girls about feminism and sexism and instill in them a desire for equality.  So far so good, my ten year old now has a keen eye for a gender stereotype! My heart swells with pride.

I feel that we are on the verge of a revolution . Feminism is a hot topic and rightly so.  Campaigns such as Lose the Lads’ Mags and No More Page 3 are gathering pace.  Women are not objects.  Women do not exist for male sexual gratification. These beliefs and the media machine that feeds them are part of the problem, part of the reason why some men believe that women are worth less than men, that women are less intelligent than men, that men have the right to control women’s bodies.  These beliefs help The Dominator justify his behaviour.  Let’s keep challenging  them! (I’m not even going to start on the body image/self esteem issue! )

LINKS

The Freedom Programme http://www.freedomprogramme.co.uk/lwd.php

How to be a Woman  http://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/0091940737

The Chameleon  http://www.amazon.co.uk/The-Chameleon-ebook/dp/B00DBEGCWC

Lose the Lads’ Mags http://www.losetheladsmags.org.uk/

No More Page 3 http://nomorepage3.org/